Ask Seek & Knock Them Walls Down

Posted on 01. Jun, 2011 by Fornmation Student in Blog

Am I willing to make those changes and allow others to speak to my blind spots?

Are the choices I’m making today taking me in the right direction?

Am I pretending to be somebody I’m not or do I know who I really am?

Many of us don’t ask these questions until we have gone too far.  I know I was one that never took a second look at any of them until I put myself in the position to get challenged on it all. For me, God was a part of my life but I had walked away for a period of time and lived in the world where many of these questions never got asked.  I lived with my walls up, building them around as a way to protect only to find those walls closed me in, leading me to not let anyone in including God.

In the process of building walls I ended up hiding behind the lies I built to keep those walls from coming down. The lies which I only let get worse and worse until I began to believe myself -that my life was mine and no matter what people said nothing could change that mind set. My mind set changed when my life hit bottom;  I had no job, no place to go, I was going out almost every night and asked the question, was this the life I wanted to live? Did I want the rest of my life to be about going out drinking and partying & to live by what the world said was a good life or did I want to make a stand and turn my life back around? After pondering these questions, the next week I came home and back to church.

God had a plan for my life and not even a month from being back at church, he brought some amazing people in my life to help me and show me that I was trying to live in both worlds. They began to show me that I needed to be all in before God could do anything in my life. After mediating on all I was being challenged with I decided to go “all in” and I Enrolled in Formation.   By being a student in Formation, it has helped me see so much about myself and my life and face the questions about my life I had been avoiding.  Along the way I discovered answers about the walls I had built up and discovered how hiding behind the lies of who I really am robbed me of living out my destiny.  I’m realizing as I give up my will and life in exchange for His, I get a better life worth living.

God has taken me through a lot in this program and I have come out from behind the lies and the walls- both have been broken! I have completely turned my heart back to God. There are many things that you can do to change your heart but first you must be brave enough to ask the questions, and even braver to seek the answers.

So go ahead, I dare you to look within, behind the mask and walls and ask, seek and knock those walls down! The answers to those questions you ask will lead you closer to the changes you need to make that will bring you closer to God and the life you were called to live.

Melissa Thurman

Formation Student